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I have been realizing that I have a superstitious fear that if I acknowledge something good, that thing will then be taken away from me. (This is probably *why* my lj often sounds to me far, far more negative than I want it to be, or than I see myself as living in the world.)

It's a silly superstition, one that seems to detract from the joy in the world, rather than add to it.

My life is very good and wonderful. I am blessed with so much, but the way I speak seems often not to reflect it. I want to way I speak and write to reflect the very real appreciation I do have of all that is so very marvelous around me.

One immediate thing I can do to try to change this in myself, is try to post something good in my lj every day. I suspect that it may mostly take the form of things for which I am grateful, as those are both immensely easy to think of and rather scary to write.

Edit for clarity: The something good will probably NOT generally be in the format of "this is something good today", as I suspect that will rapidly come to annoy me.

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The first of the posts of good things:

I am grateful for all the frozen milk I have.

(Ok, this is *really* scary to post. I'm convinced there will now, at some point before I very much need that milk, be a failure in our freezer or the power to it such that I lose all the milk. But, well, I wouldn't be where I am in so many ways, and have so much of what is so good in my life, if I didn't do scary things...)

EDIT: This probably makes more sense in the context of my previous post.