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Nov. 10th, 2003 08:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gosling"Say I'm weary. Say I'm sad. Say that wealth and health have missed me. Say I'm growing old, but add, Jenny kissed me..."
Definitely a tenacious song virus. :-)
Which feels really life affirming right now, because we all get old (and this is the first birthday *ever* where I've felt old in a negative way, so it's kind of underlining that.) And because there are lots of things, things much bigger than any individual life, that really suck right now. (And there always have been; things have generally sucked far worse, really. Much, much worse.) But there's also all the good things we give each other, all the connections, and that's always been there too, and can be extremely powerful.
Which isn't profound, but the feelings behind it are pretty strong.
I don't know how the express this. I'm trying to put in words how I felt at my party, and I can't because it was all emotion and not very language based at all.
I guess just that there's been so much stress and ickyness, and it's been all the good things from all my fabulous friends that keep everything from ever going monochrome, that infuse everything with joy and life. (And that the practical support has been *really* important, but all the emotional stuff has been important too, profoundly important in ways I sometimes forget.)
And I felt really, really loved at the party, and that has stayed with me.
Definitely a tenacious song virus. :-)
Which feels really life affirming right now, because we all get old (and this is the first birthday *ever* where I've felt old in a negative way, so it's kind of underlining that.) And because there are lots of things, things much bigger than any individual life, that really suck right now. (And there always have been; things have generally sucked far worse, really. Much, much worse.) But there's also all the good things we give each other, all the connections, and that's always been there too, and can be extremely powerful.
Which isn't profound, but the feelings behind it are pretty strong.
I don't know how the express this. I'm trying to put in words how I felt at my party, and I can't because it was all emotion and not very language based at all.
I guess just that there's been so much stress and ickyness, and it's been all the good things from all my fabulous friends that keep everything from ever going monochrome, that infuse everything with joy and life. (And that the practical support has been *really* important, but all the emotional stuff has been important too, profoundly important in ways I sometimes forget.)
And I felt really, really loved at the party, and that has stayed with me.
